Go Chase Butterflies

It's 72 degrees outside and the wind is blowing at a steady pace. The birds are chirping out in the distance and it smells like freshly cut grass and fabric softener. I'm doing laundry and the neighbors cutting their grass.

We have protected land behind our house, so there's dozens of multi shaped and sized trees stretching as far as I can see. The sun is shinning so brightly today, I can see the sunlight gleaming off some of the leaves. Now that it's Fall and the colors are starting to change, the pops of red really make the different shades of green stand out.

Milo's out in the yard chasing squirrels and butterflies, running laps back and forth with the neighbors dog on the other side of the fence barking without a care in the world for how annoyingly loud he is. If only us as humas could feel so free in what we choose to do without worrying about what others think... imagine how much more fun we would be having.

I'm currently going through something that's been challenging to deal with and in doing so, has brought a lot of feelings to surface. Sometimes when we're going through something, it can be difficult to talk about so we choose to hide it. Not for any reason in particular, it's simply because we don't know how to bring the thing up without it coming across as attention seeking. It can also be hard to share things sometimes, because being vulnerable is tough and not everyone responds in the way you would hope they would. Now it's important to note that we are not responsible for other's feelings, but damn can it sure hurt when we're treated in a way we didn't see coming. The voice in the back of my head is reminding me not to worry about what other's think and though it is hard, ignoring it is really the only option. At the end of the day, we are in charge of our own peace, and we need to do whatever is necessary to protect that.

TO BE HONEST, I haven't free wrote in a while, so I figured I would sit in front of the computer and let whatever wants to surface, come to light. My life has a lot of ups and downs in it right now, and sometimes it's nice to just shut it all out and observe what's happening right in front of me. I suggest you try the same sometime; life can be surprisingly beautiful in the midst of all the chaos when you take a minute to slow down and look at what's in front of you. While every day may not be pretty you should at least allow yourself to enjoy the days that are, so when you're having a not so pretty day, you can remember what it is you have to look forward to.

BRB.

Milo wanted attention so we just played fetch in the yard for a few minutes and it made me think of something relevant to this post; hopefully I can translate this in a way that makes sense to you. When attempting to play fetch, Milo has a habit of not wanting to release the ball. Of course you know the only way to play fetch is for the dog to release the ball so you can throw it and they can have fun retrieving it. Once I finally manage to get the ball free from his mouth, he's barking and jumping in anticipation for me to throw it so he can have it back. After I throw the ball he bolts towards it and scoops it up with his mouth then runs back to me.

I feel like as humans, we sometimes forget that we need to drop our ball (let our guard down) so we can allow the universe to throw us a ball back (let it be an opportunity or a message), and enjoy the ride (the ups and downs) in doing so. Through every chase there is a lesson to be learned. In this specific example, over time Milo learns that if he drops the ball I can throw it and he can run around and chase it, he simply just has to release it to me. I think the point I'm trying to make is that we should be more open to letting our guard down so opportunities, growth, and lessons have a way of finding their way to us. If Milo can trust me in a way that I will throw his ball back after he releases it to me, shouldn't' we be able to let our guard down and trust that the universe will give us something valuable in return? It may not always be pretty at first, but when you really think about it with an open mind, it could be exactly what you didn't know you needed in that moment.